March 17, 2009

  • Rough Patches

    So I'm going through a bit of a rough patch now.  I had a "chat" with my advisor today, and he came to the conclusions that I just don't cut it when it comes to graduate school.  The suggestion was that I find another advisor who can better deal with my "issues."  He's never seen a graduate student like myself. 

    Well, that's kinda odd.  The last graduate student that I heard he had quit.  To this day I have no idea why he chose me as his student!  So it's on the verge of 4 years wasted that I write this, waiting for what will come tomorrow.  And then came this House episode.  What is the line that I remember?

    "I want to have the surgery.  If there isn't a reason why all these bad things are happening to me.  That there is some purpose for all it.  Then I don't want to live."   or....roughly something similar to that.

    This dissertation proposal has kept me busy, and I have not been able to pursue some of the discussions that I've been having with others here at Xanga.  So I'll leave you with these questions.  Is positive reinforcement a sufficient stimulus to move forward in life?  Or do you sometimes need some negative reinforcement to move you along?